show me some skin I might bite it

I just want to take you out and get you drunk so I can have my wicked way with you....

I absolutely adore Benjamin Taylor and his new album "The Legend of Kung Folk Part 1 (The Killing Bite)." I stumbled upon it this past weekend and was instantly in HEART with the song "Wicked Way." It's so catchy and unique. It's THAT song that instantly puts a smile on my face and a little pep in my step. I want the entire world to listen to it and just relax. My other absolute favorite from Mr. Taylor is his acoustic cover of Macy Gray's "I Try." This was my original encounter with Mr. Taylor and it was a smash! After some research I came upon a factoid that has consumed my heart and mind... BENJAMIN TAYLOR is the SON of JAMES TAYLOR! Hello!!!!! No wonder I adore this boy so much! JT is like my idol, I cannot get enough of him and his mellow, feel good music. Handyman, oh baby!

"I just want to take you out and get you drunk so I can have my wicked way with you
I’m just being honest cause I know the other guys are thinking just the same way too
And I’m not gonna lie and say that I will take you out to dance there’s just no chance ‘cause I don’t even like the same music you do
I just wanna have my wicked way with you
So don’t you fight it Cause I know you’re gonna like it
Show me some skin I might bite it
I wanna have my wicked with you.
So I’m not gonna come over and meet your mom and dad
They know that I was bad"

p.s. Could you honestly imagine a guy saying this to you? It might be kind of nice to know their intentions up front rather than be another victim of the game.... or maybe we all just like the game? I think my pants would automatically just drop if Benjamin Taylor sang that to me.. quirky hair, goofy smile and all..... yep, I'm THAT girl!

shine like gold, buzz like a bee

Spring is almost here, well, I guess technically the first day of Spring was on the 20th. So let me rephrase, Spring WEATHER is almost here, which means NEW THREADS! I've already started my virtual shopping to see what's out there and what I potentially will be obsessed with as the sun starts to make a more regular appearance. I went to DSW the other night and bought some kick ass flips from Roxy. They aren't exactly a necessity but they sure are super cute! I also bought a boyfriend cardigan from Old Navy, or ON as I like to call it. I can honestly spend hours upon hours at ON, I just love their shit. I go pretty frequently just to grab sale items or scope out whats new on the floor. I'm totally a thrifty retail junky. HOWEVER I'm not a huge fan of Ross and TJMax, I'm sure there are tons of items I'm missing out on, but the huge blue rod that sticks out of the carts at Ross, freaks me out. I think its scary.... then again.... a lot of things scare me. Whatever, this blog is boring and lame. Just wanted to get on here and write about something besides boy drama, for once!

ta-da! I'll dish the dirt in my next post.

"Smile" - Uncle Kracker (but seriously how the fuck is this on CMT's website? I'm sorry.. country how?!)

Blind.

The sun has finally started to come out and make regular appearances. I cannot even explain how happy this makes my heart. I am such a sun bunny, it's ridiculous. With the excitement of warm weather approaching, I have mixed feelings of the memories that come with the change of seasons. Maybe it's just because everything is so fresh, or because I'm constantly being raped by my memory. I'm not sure. I'm not even going to go into details about my memory and the beautiful and horrific things it does to me. I'm a Scorpio and by definition we are unable to let things go, add an impeccable memory to that equation, and you have me, a zoo.

My motivation behind this post: Ke$ha - Blind

"I'm sick and tired of the mess you made me
Never gonna catch me cry
You must be blind if you can't see
You'll miss me til the day you die"

In my opinion, it's the perfect "sunny weather" song, I listen to it on blast with my windows down and sunglasses on! Give it a whirl, or don't!

let me let go

I realize that the only reason why I blog anymore is so that I can reflect on the thoughts and conclusions I reach on a day to day basis. I don't do it for any specific reason other than to remind myself of where I was at on a particular day. Today, this is where my mind is at.

As I sit here at work, busy with excel spreadsheets and "to-do" tasks I realize I have to let go. I say it, I attempt it, and then something happens that leads me to believe that there might be a second wind somewhere on this dead end road. I'm the exact definition of an eternal optimist. My mind is constantly in fear of the "what if" situation. I talk myself out of moving forward, because I think "what if he changes his mind, what if he starts taking interest.." this puts an entire PAUSE on my life. For some odd reason, the possibility of the "what if" situation becoming reality sends my head soaring. I'm not even sure if I want that!

My head and heart are at a constant war, they have been since I was a teenager. My mind unfortunately has ZERO control over what happens in my life. My heart seems to be running the show, and failing miserably at that. When my heart has finally had enough and wants to move forward, this is what happens....

I take one step forward, I look around and I like what I see. I look down at my phone, and its you, texting me. OUT OF NOWHERE. Just like that, I take 5 steps backwards. The sad thing, as I'm taking these steps backwards, I look around, and I still like what I see.

I CANNOT ESCAPE YOU.

Even when I am dead set on the fact that nothing will ever become of this stupid lifeless mess that we've created, one SINGLE move on your end makes my strength disappear. I turn to mush. You've never ONCE led me to believe that you care, and yet I still cannot let go.

I want it to stop. And as much as I want it to stop, I cannot cut you out. Do me a favor and just end it. Fuck someone else, delete my number, ignore me to the point of hurting me. Just LET ME LET GO!

"Let me let go" - Faith Hill

with or without you

I'm totally becoming that annoying friend that complains about the same shit every day to the same people. I take advice (the same advice) and think about it. I let it roll around in my heart and head for awhile and then make the same damn decisions, over and over and over again. I mean really, what the shit is it gonna take for me to "see the big picture" and drop the douche bag?

I love my friends for putting up with the same questions and same outcome. I am so in love with the fact that they 1. don't give up on the idea of me catching on 2. even if they are frustrated or extremely annoyed, they give solid sound advice as if its the first time hearing about it and 3. tell it to me straight with no bullshit in sight.

My Sister told me after seeing "He's Just Not That Into You," that it was a movie written for me. I own it, along with the book and even the female's version "Be Honest, You're Not That Into Him Either." (it's ok to laugh at the fact that I'm still clueless)

So here I am, hung up on the same guy that I've been trying to figure out since October. What is it about this particular person that keeps me on my toes? I've had a few serious relationships, I've dated, I've been single, my world has clearly been spinning since the moment I took my first breath. So why WHY WHY can't I come to the conclusion that I'm going to be just PERFECT with or without him? That my heart will keep on ticking, with or without him?

I'm laughing as I write this because here I am, wasting precious brain cells to write this blog, which will generate the same advice I received a month ago. God Bless you my friends, thank you for having the patience of a saint <3>

"With or Without You" - U2

Life and Lyrics

I don't know what it is, but I can pretty much find a song to fit every emotion/situation in my life. I don't know how to explain it, but everything about my life makes more sense when paired with a song. My current situation can be summed up by Fleetwood Mac's "Silver Springs." I am addicted and cannot stop listening to it. Obsessed to the point of making a cd in the AM so I can listen to it all the way to work, and once the coast is clear, listening to it via youtube. Yes, I have it playing right now, busted.

It's like, I can't handle anything in my life without having a song to express how I'm feeling, or what I'm experiencing. I know people say they love music, but this is like my oxygen. I suffocate when I don't have music surrounding me. I owe everything to the musicians that illustrate my life. I don't think they realize what an impact they have on people, even songs that are years before my time, hit home on a whole other level.

Maybe I use it to drown out my own thoughts?

"You could be my silver spring
Blue-green..colors flashin'
I would be your only dream
Your shinin' autumn....ocean crashin'
Don't say that she's pretty....
and did you say that she loves you
Baby I don't wanna know

So I'll begin not to love you
Turn around, you'll see me runnin'
I'll say I loved you years ago
And tell myself you never loved me..No
Don't say that she's pretty
And did you say that she loves you
Baby, I don't wanna know....Oh no
And can you tell me...was it worth it
Baby, I don't wanna know..

Time cast a spell on you...you won't forget me
I know I could've loved you but you would not let me

Time cast a spell on you...but you won't forget me
I know I could've loved you, but you would not let me
I'll follow you down 'til the sound of my voice will haunt you
You'll never get away from the sound of the woman that loves you"

heart of the matter

Ever since I was little, I've been in love with the Eagles. I've said numerous times that I would give anything to see them in concert..

Well, on May 13th at 8 PM I will be in attendance at the Key Arena to see the Eagles perform. I think I'm still in shock. I have loved them for so long, it's kind of surreal. If the concert is anything similar to their "Hell Freezes Over" tour, I will most likely cry tears of ridiculousness. The best part about this concert is I'm going with my Mom, Aunt Ween and Aunt Nikki. The four of us are guaranteed to be some sort of shit show frenzy.

I hope they sit on stools and perform like they do on the "Hell Freezes Over" DVD. Yes I have it, I cannot even count the number of times I've sat and watched it from start to finish. I literally have things memorized. (example) Like when Don Henley begins the first cord of Heart of the Matter he says "this took me 42 years to write and 5 minutes to sing." I can't help but fall in love every time I hear him say that.

If they perform any of the following, I will lose my shit:

• Heart of the Matter
• Learn to be Still
• Wasted Time
• Last Resort
• Life's Been Good
• New York Minute

Who am I kidding... I'm going to lose it the minute I hear the guitar intro to "Hotel California"

"Heart of the Matter" - Don Henley

MMHMM

So I have a new cd that I'm obsessed with, It's Relient K's 2004 release "MMHMM." I was introduced to the song "Which to bury; us or the hatchet" while listening to Pandora the other day and I was instantly in love. I decided to check out the entire cd to see if it was equally as moving. I can say, without a doubt, that it is.

Here is my list of favorites that I have on repeat:

Who I Am Hates Who I've Been- The lyrics to this song seriously made my heart do a somersault. I found an acoustic version of this song that just makes my world stand still every time I listen to it. Perfection.

The One I'm Waiting For- I can't even put into words how much I adore this song. I feel like it was written for me, no I'm not conceited or even overly confident. But when it says "and I'm still waiting for you to be the one I'm waiting for" I can't help but relate.

Which To Bury; Us or The Hatchet- BEST.BREAK-UP.SONG.EVER.

Let It All Out- "But tomorrow, upon hearing what I did- I will stare at you in disbelief- oh, inconsistent me- crying out for consistency.." I know, right?!

So those are my favs as of right now. I cannot wait to run out of this office in a hour and crank the volume up in my car and submerge myself in Relient K.